WE ARE MAKING THE SUCCESSOR PAY FOR THE SINS OF THE PREDECESSOR

We’ve passed the hardest month of the year.

First of all, I want to start by saying "get well soon" to those of us who survived. 🙂

We’ve left the eclipses behind, and Mercury retrograde is over.

The days focused on relationships were filled with judgments of the past and the re-emergence of unresolved lessons.

What happens is beautiful, of course, it comes with its gifts.

Until that time, struggling is the most natural part of our human exam.

This period has been a good opportunity to look at the actions of our former versions through the window of our current lives.

In the journey called life, I saw how the things I put in my pocket along the way have reshaped me.

I’ve faced the truth that some wounds we experienced in the past, no matter how much we fought with ourselves, are the ones that taught us how we hurt ourselves in the present.

We evolve through relationships, yes. But we often refuse to see the most painful truth about relationships.

We all learn to break from the places we were broken, and to kill in the way we were killed.

Or, in a nice summary, we make the successor pay for the sins of the predecessor.

I don’t fear people’s wounds, but I fear them hurting with their wounds, I used to say. I gently placed the needle in my hand on the ground and pricked myself. As I thanked the past for giving me the chance to rebuild myself with stronger bricks, I realized the hardness of those bricks, which I may have never seen before. (Ah, my dear reader! I know you resonated with these sentences through the drops of moments in your eyes. I’m hugging the parts of you that fought that battle, we are not alone.)

Teoman says in his song En Güzel Hikayem, "It was a harsh thing, love, in my bones, but I squeezed and bled the bad blood out of my wound. I licked it to heal, as if it was the past." Didn’t we hurt someone too, with the wounds we licked, kissed, and caressed, hoping they would pass? Moreover, if we asked those who gave us those wounds, they would probably justify their own wounds…

This Scorpio full moon was hard. As always, both healing and troublesome, both the pain and its cure. A smile on my face, the Scorpio eclipse of 2021 comes to my mind. My dear teacher İsmail Bülbül's mental purification group therapy, which I also attended, had coincided exactly with the Scorpio full moon, such a coincidence. These were the fresh wounds of my own that had been bandaged on the days when my wounds taught me not to hesitate to hurt.

It was a work where I discovered fears I didn’t even know existed and shed them one by one like cabbage leaves. I still refer to it as my milestone.

Ah, my dear reader.

We are not alone.

Fortunately…

With LOVE,